"The lights are as bright as the day is dim..."

Today is as sucky as yesterday was righteous. Woke up to an overcast full of painful memories, born from bad dreams about old friends and fears about the future, and a literal overcast that prompted me to sleep in instead of getting up early and biking to work. It says we're blessed with "memory, reason and skill," but some mornings, I'm not sure memory is a blessing.

The items on my to do list multiply like proverbial rabbits, and, of course, everyone wants everything yesterday, and I feel guilty for putting off the patient people that I know I can get away with putting off. And yet, I'm not very motivated to do anything about it.

I'm replacing old friends with new ones, but some days, it's not the same. You miss the buddy that you could say anything at all too (and had to hear anything and everything from). You miss the folks you grew up with, or some stupid, familiar thing that's gone. You wouldn't trade your new life for your old one, but sometimes you wouldn't mind visiting for a while. Maybe they could build a theme park out of nostalgia?

Yup, it's a sucky, grey, overcast, nostalgic, kind of day, and it's good for nothing.